Gone

You bring your baby home-
love her so much you would die to protect her
you do everything in your power to keep her safe
make her comfortable and happy
you cant wait for her first smile as she recognizes you for the first time
her eyes follow you as you walk across the room
your life is devoted to her safely and happiness
as she grows you teach her right from wrong
gentle but firm, loving her so very much
as she takes her first steps on this earth
you hope and pray she walks down the path of righteousness
you hope and pray she doesn't have to go through the trials and heartaches
that you have gone through
you start spending your life teaching her to love God
you do your best to be an example for her to follow
it is no longer about you anymore but is all about your love for this child
her first "I love you mommy" you cant hear enough
you give yourself fully to her and protect her above all else
as she grows she becomes a part of you
you cant remember life without her
you begin dreaming of her growing into a beautiful woman
and hope she will want to be your friend
she becomes a teenager and you are so proud of how beautiful she has become
so many hopes and dreams for her-
she no longer follows you across the room
doesn't say " I love you mommy" much anymore
and slowly you are not her world- but she is still yours
she starts to fall and fumble and you pick her up
encourage her to walk again down the road of righteousness
because you know that is where God will walk with her
she starts to hurt your heart
but you still have hope she will choose to do right
then when you least expect it because you have fooled yourself into thinking she was alright
saying to yourself "we are almost their, just a bit longer and she will be safe
it will be worth all the tears"
you wake up to reality
she is leaving you. leaving all you have taught her
everything you wanted for her
the way you were walking was not the way she wanted to go
you panic, you get a glimpse of the life she will have without God
you reason with her, pray like never before
but just as quickly as she came to you as a sweet baby
she leaves you feeling like a failure, gasping for breath
trying to understand, but there is nothing you can do
she is gone......